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That does it. My brain is stuffed at capacity. Oh, it's filled to the brim. If I study for 1 more minute, I might go completely insane. Oh, Here's, that book I borrowed last night.

I, I put a couple of notes in the margin. Sorry. I do that with all my books, and I guess I wasn't thinking. But they're in pencil, so You can probably erase them. If that doesn't work, I'll totally buy you in a copy.

But it's not too bad. See? Anyway, Thanks for coming over. I really needed the help. I I thought neuropharmacology was tough in undergrad, but Grad school.

Yikes. I was kinda feeling like I was in over my head. But you make it all look so easy. No. Don't be modest.

I'm totally serious. Oh, shut up. You know I'm right. You know I'm right. Biria, you You are really talented with this stuff, and I mhmm.

Yeah. I I, I don't know. Sometimes it just sometimes it feels like I'm not cut out for this program. Like, I see you and everybody else in our cohort being all brilliant, and I can never quite keep up. You know?

And those guys are classmates. They're nice …

That does it. My brain is stuffed at capacity. Oh, it's filled to the brim. If I study for 1 more minute, I might go completely insane. Oh, Here's, that book I borrowed last night.

I, I put a couple of notes in the margin. Sorry. I do that with all my books, and I guess I wasn't thinking. But they're in pencil, so You can probably erase them. If that doesn't work, I'll totally buy you in a copy.

But it's not too bad. See? Anyway, Thanks for coming over. I really needed the help. I I thought neuropharmacology was tough in undergrad, but Grad school.

Yikes. I was kinda feeling like I was in over my head. But you make it all look so easy. No. Don't be modest.

I'm totally serious. Oh, shut up. You know I'm right. You know I'm right. Biria, you You are really talented with this stuff, and I mhmm.

Yeah. I I, I don't know. Sometimes it just sometimes it feels like I'm not cut out for this program. Like, I see you and everybody else in our cohort being all brilliant, and I can never quite keep up. You know?

And those guys are classmates. They're nice and everything. But I don't know. I can tell they It feels like they look down on me just a little bit. Like, I don't think they mean to.

And if you ask them, they would probably say that I'm smart and insightful and all that. But, like, they never wanna hear what I think. You know? They never when they're struggling with some new theory or whatever, never the person they turn to. That's all.

And, Like, that's okay, I guess. I I don't have to be the smartest girl in school. But, I mean, it just feels like they don't have any faith in me and in my abilities. Like, they're just putting up with me until I Disappear. Every PhD cohort has that 1 student who just can't hack it and Washes out by year 3.

You know? And I guess it feels like everybody's already decided who it's going to be. And I could deal with that feeling if it was just, like, 1 or 2 assholes putting me down from the back of the classroom. But I don't know. It's really hard when you're getting that feeling from everyone.

Everyone, Nyxah. You? Oh. Yeah. I'm shit.

Shit. I'm really sorry. You, you didn't sign up for serious time. I get carried away. Oh, sorry.

Sorry. I was just What I was trying to say is that I really appreciate having you around, and I'm really glad I got a chance to pick your brain a bit. Wow. You're right. How did it get so late?

I guess I needed a lot of help. Oh, well, tomorrow's Saturday. Right? Not such a big deal if we're up past our bedtimes. Oh.

She she's expecting you back. That's It's too bad. I was kind of hoping that, no. No. Wait.

Wait. Don't, don't don't leave just yet. Please? I I mean, You did me such a huge favor, so it's only fair if I mean, uh-huh. Why don't you can I make you a drink?

No. No booze included. I know you are a responsible drinker, but I'm a really good hand at, like, hot chocolatey drinks. And I've got 1 or 2 specialties I could whip up for you. I I really want to.

You've been really kind to me. Tonight and ever since I met you. I just I want to do something nice for you, even if it's something tiny. Would that be okay? Please?

Please, just One drink. 15 minutes. It's silly. I know. But it'll help you sleep, and It would make me really happy.

Yes. That's yes. Good. Cool. Okay.

I, awesome. So why don't you go take a See it on the couch over there, and I'll be I'll be right back with something really special. Here here you go. Made with love. Oh, it's mostly hot chocolate, you know, from the little packets.

Not the finest ingredients there, But there's some cream, some coconut milk, just a pinch of coffee and mint, and, Some special herbs and spices. No. I'm not gonna tell you. What kind of chef reveals her secret recipe? Right?

You just trust me. Give it a sip and tell me you don't like it. Just just drink it. It's good. Right?

I've been working on it for a while. Took me forever to get the formula just right. You. You drink that. Sit back and Relax a bit.

You know, we talk about school and chemistry and all that stuff all the time, but We never really talk about, like, our lives, do we? Like, you know a little about me. Probably too much after that motor mouth thing I did earlier. And I know some stuff about you. But since we're going to be seeing a lot of each other over the next few years, shouldn't we maybe learn to just, like, Chat a bit?

Like, I know you're engaged, right? To What's her name again? Yeah. Right. That's I like that name.

I remember meeting her at that orientation party last year. She's She's good, isn't she? Smart and pretty and nice and a catch, I guess. Yeah. Yeah.

I guess you are lucky. She's really something. But, I mean okay. Listen. I know that you've known her for a long time, and I have absolutely no right to ask Something like this but Are you happy?

Are you, like, really Happy. No. No. No. No.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. Sorry. I didn't Meantoo. I just shit. This isn't going like I I just meant that you're you're you feel special.

And she's great. I I know she's great, and she deserves to be happy too, but it sometimes feels like you 2 don't no. No. Please. You can't leave.

You have to. No. Listen to me. You really need to sit down right now. You I'm sorry if I offended you, but you need to listen to me.

If you don't sit down right now, you're Going to oh, you're you're feeling light headed. That's, Yeah. You should, you should sit down. Just just come back over here to the couch and and sit down. There.

Yeah. That's better. Lean back for a little bit and just Alex. Okay? Yeah.

Yeah. I know. I know you can't move. I I know. No.

No. No. No. No. No.

Shh. Calm down. I know this is scary, but just calm down. I promise It's going to be okay. I I promise.

Just calm down, let your body relax, and let me explain. Please. Please, please let me explain. I Yeah. I I drugged you.

That sounds Really bad, but that's what I did. And I I just I I oh my god. Fuck. You must be so scared. And I never wanted to make you scared.

And oh my god. I'm such a fucking monster, but I just I couldn't think of any other I I had to. I had to. Just Listen. Okay?

I lied to you tonight, and that makes me Brutally unworthy of you. I get that. But it was the last time. Okay? I'm never ever going to Lie to you again.

Never. That's a promise. I know I know you're scared. And I know you're probably angry, but it's going to be Okay. Here's what I'm going to do.

I'm going to tell you exactly what's happening to you, and I'll I'll tell you exactly what's going to happen, and and then you'll Understand? Mhmm. Okay. Did I ever tell You, about how I finished my undergrad? No?

Well, I traveled around studying traditional medicines, and some of the places I visited have a very long history with narcotic substances. There There are places where every family has a great great uncle who was an honest Mister God witch doctor. And over all those generations, they came up with some lily powerful stuff impotence potions, of course every culture has its, It's, aphrodisiacs, but also some their concoctions. Like, if you use the right combination of roots and berries, You can turn off parts of somebody's brain temporarily. Add a little bit of sap and bark, Faruk, and you can make other parts of the brain open up.

Make a person more suggestible. Make their true Self come out. And there are some other compounds that cause a, well, A sort of trance. A waking dream where everything is beautiful and fear can Vertouch you. Put it all together and you get my secret recipe.

Right now, I've turned off the parts of your brain that let you move of your own will. But I've opened up the parts of your brain that take suggestions. So you can still move if I tell you to. Just just hang in there. In a few minutes, the fear will be gone, too.

Until then, just listen. I need to you why. I I I love you. That's all. I love you so so so much.

I didn't realize it until a month or 2 ago, but I love of you. I love you more than I've loved anything in my entire life. My My friends, my family, my career. After I met you, I started to realize that it was all just bullshit. I don't know if this will make sense to you, but I've never really connected with anyone or anything ever.

I've never had friends. I've never had hobbies. Nothing. And I used to feel so bad about it. Like, how could everyone else be so happy?

B. How could they get so much emotion out of each other, out of the things they did? I never Understood. Everything was just gray to me. Nothing had any color, any flavor.

I learned to fake it, to smile and laugh and make friends and sleep with boys, but faking it was That's all I could ever do, and thought that's how it but always be. But then I met you, and I figured it out. It all All started making sense. It's simple. None of that stuff matters.

None of that stuff means anything. Not unless I Have you next to me? You're you're the brightest star in the sky, and I just need to capture some of that light. Does that does that make sense? I just I love you.

I love you. And I think you love me too. I know. I know that sounds crazy. You're engaged.

Right? Right? You're engaged to a beautiful, brilliant woman. How could you be in love with a nervous, dull, awkward girl from your graduate seminar? Mhmm.

I get it. I get it. I do. But I see how you look at me. I've noticed how you linger in the halls after class so I can catch up with you.

How I always notice when I get a haircut or wear a new outfit. How you drop by the library even when you have nothing to do there just because you know that I'll be there dressing out and needing a friend. That's and that's just not what people do. Not normal people. Not people who aren't in love.

You're in love with me. I know you are. But you haven't realized it yet because As ever her. And she's she is great. She's so great.

She's She really is. She's a good person, truly, and she doesn't deserve what's about to happen. But But, like, don't I deserve to be happy? Don't don't I deserve don't I deserve to be in I to be loved by somebody like you. I try so hard.

I try so fucking hard all the time. I just I wanna be okay. Hey. I wanna be warm and happy and loved, and you make me feel that way. You're the only person who makes me feel that way.

And this feeling, it's real. It has to be real. It's the only, only thing that's It's real. So, so here's what I'm going to do now. I'm I'm going to talk to you, and I'm going to touch you.

And because of the things I put in your drink, because of The little windows I opened in your mind, everything I say and do is going to sink in very deeply. And those little The happy place is in your brain where your fiance lives. I'm going to fill them up with me instead, So we can be happy. And the changes I'm going to make, they'll Only really stick if I can give your brain a big jolt of serotonin. Like, from an Wagesome.

So I'm going to I'm gonna Make love to you. And After you finish, it'll all be over. I'll be in your head forever. We'll be together. So remember how I said you can move If if I tell you to, I want you to move now.

I want you To kiss me. Kiss me. If I've waited so long for but it's it's even better than I imagined. Oh my god. I can't believe this is happening.

Please kiss me again. Kiss me hard. Oh, god. Oh my god. This is this is incredible.

Hold on. Let me take my shirt off. Okay. I feel really bashful now. I mean, I'm isn't that weird?

Since I'm in the one in control what you think, but no. No. No. You are in control of me. You've Been in control of me ever since we met.

I just I just want to I just wanna show you. When this is over, I'll do anything for you. I'll do whatever you tell Oh, me too. But for now, please please touch my Squeeze them. So take them in your mouth.

Suck on them. Play It was when it pops with your tongue and bite. Just let it Just, just like I've always imagined. Oh, we're all done together. Better.

Do you know how many times I've touched my breasts like this? Grab them and curl them, squeeze them, and push them together. Thinking of you. Thinking of you. Touching them.

Thinking Oh, you suck. Oh, I feel so much better than I could have ever imagined. Oh. You Look at your pants. You're you're getting hard.

You're getting hard for me. I knew knew it. I knew it. I think I think it's time for me to make you feel good. And once I do it the 1st time, we can do it for rest of our lives, forever.

No. Come on. Lift your hips for me. Let me get your pants off, And I I'll take off my bra so you don't even have to move to site. You can see man.

Well, I know they're not as large as hers, but still a good size. Right? Now that your pants are off, it's time for your underwear. I want you to strip completely for me. Oh my god.

It's it's perfect. It's even better than I imagined. So if they can look hard, Your skin is so soft. Does it feel good when I run my fingers Fierce over it gently. When I trace all the way up to the hair And all the way down to the base.

What if I Wrap my hand around it and just squeeze. Just squeeze Use it softly and stroke. And down. And down. Oh.

Yeah. Yes. Look me in the eyes while I I Really? I want you to look at me, and I want you to think about me. I want you to think About me and be just happy.

Let me fill Up your mind. Just me, only me. Mhmm. Yeah. You like that?

I can tell. You're twitching in my hand. I had better slow down before you get Too excited. You see, I wanna taste you. I wanna taste your cock.

It sounds rude to call it that, dirty, but I wanna be dirty with you. Only with you. You Make me wanna do things I've never I don't know. I've never I've never given a blow Before, but just for a minute. Sorry.

I know I said just a small one, but now that I have you here between my lips. Make it resist. You It tastes so good. So good. So sweet.

You. So real. Like a home cooked meal After a long tuba, bra. I I don't know what I'm saying. I can't explain it.

Now Now listen to me. It feels good, doesn't it? To Feel me lick from the base of your car. All the way to the head. To see me savor you.

To see me suck up your delicious precum. I want you to feel this? To really, really feel To feel it deep inside your mind. I Want you to take this pleasure and bury it deep, Deep inside you. I want you to think of the last time your fiance sucked your cock.

I want you to picture her looking up at you as she takes your cock deep, deep into her mouth. Can you see her? Can you see her changing? Can you see her eyes slowly becoming my eyes? Her lips shifting into my Your lips.

As they run up and down, you Come. Picture the smell And the smell of her hair. Picture her smell. Insulin eye smell When your hands through her Hair? Really feel those soft, bland locks?

Watch her hair grows longer and brighter and darker and bluer, every time Your fingers pass through it. Turn her hair into my hair. Turn her in To me. Only me. Only me.

Only me. Only me. Only me. Only me. Only Me.

That's it, baby. Let her go. Let Me in. Let her go. Let her go.

Let me Let me let her go. Me? I could do this all night, but I can tell you're getting Clothes? I really want you to finish inside of Me? Let me just get my pants off.

There. Look. Look at what you made me. Kissing you, tasting you. I feel like I'm on fire.

My My pussy is on fire. I wanna give it to you. I want you to take me, will you? Will you please kiss it for me? Here, just Let me stand over you.

Lie still. Just relax. Here. I'll put it right in your Thanks. I'll even move my panties out of the way.

See how wet it is? You did that. Nobody else has ever made me feel like this. Can you feel how hot it is? Can you hear hear how moist I am for you when I put my fingers down there?

I want you to kiss it. I want you to feel that heat on your face. Please. Please kiss it. My god, shit.

Oh, it's so good. Yeah. Let's let's just use your tongue. Oh, slowly up and down. Yes.

Yes. Yes. Yes. It's perfect. Now Suck on my clit.

Suck suck harder. Oh my god. Oh, shit. Taste me. Taste my pussy and let me into your mind.

Let me consume you. Let Into every last corner of you, feel my warmth seep into your head, into the deepest corners of your mind. Yeah. Yeah. Fuck.

You're making me feel so good, baby. Doesn't it Feel good. Making me feel good. Fuck. Fuck.

Fuck. Yes. Yes. Yes. I know it does.

Open your mind, baby. Let my pleasure in. Feel it with me. Take my pleasure deep into your Mind. Let I'll let it override the little voice telling you no.

Let me override her. Let me Replace her. Focus on me. I just need oh my god. Oh my god.

That's so good. Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop.

Stop. It's you're really good at that. No. Oh my god. I'm so close, but I wanna finish with you.

I wanna I wanna really, really feel a moment that will change our lives forever. Here. Here. Kiss me again. Kiss me while I straddle you.

Oh, listen. Okay? Look into my eyes. I know. I know you didn't get much say in all of this.

I know that you started off really scared, and maybe you're still a little scared. But Before we do this, before we intertwine forever, I am I wanna give you a choice. Okay? In a second, I'm going to tell you to speak, but I'm not going to tell you what to say. That's up to you.

And if you want this as much as I do, if you wanna be with me forever, just say I love you. But but if I was wrong this whole time, if I've just been Abusing you all night. You never wanna see me again. Tell me Stop. I promise to stop.

I'll pull your clothes back up. I'll Keep you safe until the drugs wear off, and and you can do whatever you want with me. Call the police if you want. I don't care. Sure.

I deserve it. Just I want this to be your choice. It Won't mean anything if it isn't your choice. So please Speak. I love you too.

Oh, fuck. I love you much. No. I'm so glad. Stop it.

No. Fuck me. Please. Fuck me. Oh, fuck me.

Fuck me. Fuck me. Oh, fuck. Oh, god. Oh my god.

Oh god. Oh god. Yes. Yes. Yes.

Yes. Yes. Yes. Oh my Yeah. Please fuck me.

Oh, I needed this. Oh, I needed to feel you inside of me like this. I needed it. I've never felt so complete. It feels really good.

Fuck. Your cock is everything. Yes. Everything. Oh, fuck.

Fuck. Oh. Fuck. Please. Oh, fuck.

I've wanted this for so long. I've wanted You were so make me yours. Be fine. Make me yours. Yes.

Yes. Yes. Forever forever and ever. Oh, god. Oh, god.

Yes. Oh, Baby, come on. Come on. Fuck. Can you feel me?

Can you feel me squeezing you? Oh, I can't hear fuck. Fuck. Can you feel My hat went pussy squeezing down on you. Squeezing down with every thrust.

I want you. Oh, fuck. I want you so fucking big, baby. Oh, fuck. It was Wendy.

I just like, you've always wanted me. Oh, Wendy, Fuck. Harder and harder, harder and faster. Kiss me. Look into my eyes.

Look into my eyes and let me in. Let Me feel like every part of you. Let me feel you while you feel me. Oh, Are you ready? Are you ready?

Are you ready for this to be forever? Are you ready? Tell me you love me. Tell me you love me and come in me. Come inside me.

Come for me. Come for me. Come for me. Come Well, this is, that's even better than I pictured. Nicely teaching you a lot.

I can't even tell you how happy I am. Like, I'm I'm actually happy for the first time ever. And now we can be happy forever. Just you and me together. Listen.

I'm so sorry about all this. I feel so evil, so inhuman. I just I can't believe what I've done. Taking away your agency like that, it it wasn't right. I know that.

I do. Phil, but I don't know. I had 2. I had to, baby. You can see that, can't you?

I had to. It was the only way. I had to make you understand somehow, even if it made me into a monster. But I promise I'll never do anything like that again. I promise I'll never mess with your brain, and I'll Never leave you no choice.

Okay? Never again. Never. And it'll be fine because you've already made the only choice that matters. You chose me.

You chose me. And I will spend the rest of My life proving that it was the right choice. Oh, I I guess we'll have to tell your fiance something. Right? God.

Fuck. I didn't even think about this part. Oh, that poor girl. She doesn't deserve this, but she does deserve an explanation, I think. Should you do it?

Or would it be better if I did it? God, I've forgotten your name again. Oh? You don't remember either? That's That's the loveliest thing I've ever heard.

The jug should wear off soon. Until then, I think I'll just lie here on top of you. You should